Self-Discovery
My philosophy in life would be "Just do what is needed". It helped me to pull through critical moments in my life (not life-threatening but important issues). It helped me not to fall deeper into depression.
Yet, after three years of this philosophy, I found everything backfiring. Though I moved on physically, financially, economically, and even emotionally, I did not get over the incidents which had failed to topple me.
All of a sudden, when my shield was being lowered in an attempt to do something which I hoped I can do, they crept back from the darkness like poisonous centipedes always lurking in my shadows. My failures in my life gnawed at me, my inability to handle issues clawed at me, my desperation and hopelessness in those regrettable issues dragged me back into the darkness. The scars I had were not healed but festering.
I then regretted my comments about a person not being strong enough to handle her failures. I had moved on but that doesn't mean I have gotten over them.
What route should I take?
Yet, after three years of this philosophy, I found everything backfiring. Though I moved on physically, financially, economically, and even emotionally, I did not get over the incidents which had failed to topple me.
All of a sudden, when my shield was being lowered in an attempt to do something which I hoped I can do, they crept back from the darkness like poisonous centipedes always lurking in my shadows. My failures in my life gnawed at me, my inability to handle issues clawed at me, my desperation and hopelessness in those regrettable issues dragged me back into the darkness. The scars I had were not healed but festering.
I then regretted my comments about a person not being strong enough to handle her failures. I had moved on but that doesn't mean I have gotten over them.
What route should I take?
posted by Naru at 8:05 PM
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