ForgottenzzZzz?

I am not a Christian but I find the words in the picture quite relevant. There are always people whom you think have forgotten about you, especially when you are feeling sad and lonely. There are also people you think you have offended and therefore they have forgotten about you, not contacting you anymore. There is always someone who listened and believed in rumours and you think the person ignore and forget you. There is also the family whom you think have forgotten about you when you really need them to listen to you and give you advice and give you assurance that everything is alright.

However, this is not so. It is not their fault and also not your fault. The truth is that they will never forget about you. Everyone is so special, and that includes YOURSELF too.

Why not think it this way? Everytime you think someone has forgotten you, you are putting one brick between you and that particular person. Each time you think again, you put another brick. Time pass and one super big brick wall now stands between you and that person. Why do you want to do that?

The solution is always the simplest and the easiest. Just break down that wall and contact the person. If that person is not there to listen, that means the wall is not cleared up yet. Try again after some time. Try again after that some time. I did not say breaking down the wall is easy. It all depends on you and your perseverence.

The moral is that if you are sad and lonely, just reach out, break down the wall and someone whom you thought have forgotten about you will talk to you. ;)

Sometimes, roads have to be paved by yourself and if you do not give up, success will be at the end of the road.

Treasuring...

To be honest, this is 1 area which I am always not good at. That is why I ran up into a lot of problems in the past which are not very nice to know. Those problems are, of course for me to know only...

Firstly when I started this topic, all I could think about is
(1) Family
(2) Friends
(3) Situation you are in (be it you are still studying or working)

Then I realise what is also missing out. Memories of the past. When one thinks back, (the older you are the more things you will think back about) can one really say he or she is very proud of what he or she has done? Be it in the field of treating your family, friends, decisions you make, relationships?

Do you not wonder sometimes if you did it in another way, things would turn out to be better for you and for the rest?

It is no use crying over spilt milk. The main thing now is to go ahead and move on and to be sure that you will do it the best the first time you do anything or decide on anything wisely so that you can treasure your memories...

Sometimes it does not hurt to just listen to sound advices even if you do not like, so that you will not regret years later...

EducationZzz

I will not go into the theories and concepts which everyone is debating about in the forums, in the newspapers and in the teaching community. I want to talk about this in simpler terms, from the view point of students.

I do not claim that I know what the students nowadays think of education, but I was at least a student myself and that gave me some right in posting my viewpoint although it might not be so relevant in the present situation.

Education is always regarded as imparting knowledge and skills to the recipients who will be the students in this case. However, knowledge can also be obtained from books solely and by self study. This is true and many who make it into the tertiary education can attest to that.

So then, if knowledge can be imparted by the means of education cds, books, internet, then why do we still need to go to the school? Is it just solely because the teachers need to teach them the syllabus only? If it is so, I won't want to teach.

One aspect of education is character development which I find it one of the most meaningful part. Do people just believe in what other people say? Will you find out the truth yourself? Do people just follow what other people do and think? Do people simply do not bother about any unhappy things and just leave them alone?
Do you report or intervene or ignore those things you feel it is inappropriate? And what is REALLY inappropriate?

All these answers have to be found by yourself with the help of the people around you, be they teachers, or friends or students... That is why school life is a part of learning as well...

If you have any other opinions, feel free to leave a comment. If you are unable to, you can drop me an email @ <sularis99@yahoo.com> ...

Cheerz

Stay HappIzZzz

Life can make us very depressing. There are a lot of things around for us to worry about, such as examinations, friendship, relationships, work, family, blah blah blah...
So often are we caught up in all these, that we forgot something so important and yet so basic...
I remember the first time I went to school in Primary school... I feel that I will enjoy school life, learning new things, making friends and not be alone.
I remember the first time I made my first friend... It was so fun and sothat I wanted to make more friends.
I remember the first time I went into teaching... It was full of excitement and I was determined to have the students know that school life is so fun and to help them along...
What's the common word here? FIRST!
If we are sad, we can always remind ourselves that when we first want to do something, we really want to enjoy and be happy, and not the other way round. SO why not work harder and find that happiness which we lost over a long time? ;)

True feelings are always the purest and are always known when you first feel about something...

Ego vs Important Stuff...

A blog written with a splitting headache never makes sense, yet this is precisely what I am going to do. Hey, how many times can one really get one times large bump on your forehead? I have my thanks to the badminton racket which cracked my head. Haha.

I do for now when I cannot even remember when was my last time I got a bump on my head. When I reached home, all the traditional remedies came up, my fondest a hanky wrapped up hard boiled egg and my mom to press roll it on the bump. It was just like a heated up iron trying to flatten the bump into nothing and it hurt big time.

This may not be relevant to you since my friends always complained about bloggers writing nonsenical stuff about their lives, but it does lead me to the topic. The first thing when I realised I have the bump was to check if it was obvious and not whether it was really painful or bleeding. Looks matter more to me at that point of time when it should be to check out if I am severely injured. This shows how much sense I have in me....

Ego... It is not self-confidence, not knowing if you can do it or not. Ego is misplaced pride. Thinking you are right, you automatically reject others' views and opinions. You also automatically reject other people's advices and you are blind to others who really do care about you.

Ego blinds you to your wrongs. It also blinds you to people around you. You feel invincible. What's so wrong about breaking the rules once a while? You will never get caught. What's so wrong about showing attitude to other people? You do not care and those people are not worth your care.

Ego deafens you. It does not allow you to listen to people's advices. It only lets you listen to what you want, what you feel it is right. If anything goes against you, it will not be heard by you. You will just brush it aside with a superior 'bah.' What do these people know? They do not have as much worldly experience as you do. You know better.

I am not imploring or begging you to push aside your ego. To take away one's ego is like killing some people. I am reminding those who are full of ego not to ignore those people around you who care about you. Be their advices not likeable by you. Be that you feel that they are irritating, telling you that this is wrong and that is right. Just do not ignore them for they do care about you...

Listening is not about listening to what you want to hear. It is about knowing all the goods and bads and then deciding wisely what you should do.

That ParticulArzzZ SkooLZZzz

At first, when I was posted to 'that particular school', I lost my way there. Then when I reached that school, I realised it is a mixed single session primary school. My first impression was that this school is extremely new, the facilities just set up and everything gives the impression that it has not even been really used.

My feelings... Objectively, I know that this will be the place to decide if I can proceed on to study and become a full fledged Teacher ('Cher' in short). Emotionally, I know that this will also be the place for me to decide if teaching is my cup of tea, if I am capable of teaching.

I would have thought teaching would be about subject contents and how well I am able to convey the knowledge and contents to the students. I would have thought I would be tested on how well I can manage the class. It will just like a test to me.

I was wrong. My stay in that particular school challenged my every ideal, my every decision. It challenged my judgement, my capabilities, my almost everything. Everything which seems to be OK or 'should be like that' to me was vaporised during my stay there and I have to reorganise myself all over again.

So... A bit scary right? Actually maybe it's just peanuts to the other contract teachers out there, maybe I am just stupid or maybe I am just overly concerned about my ideals for teaching. Help~~!...

From a confused soul...

Confusion blinds you to your path and misleads you. Do not always think you know because there are always matters which you do not know. It is just that you have not met those matters yet.

Man In Black

THIS is my pen name for the blog. One reason why I keep my blog simple and readable is because the audience may be the students whom I have known before and they will straight away understand what my pen name stands for ... with a smile I hope or whatever kind of facial expression which I rather not imagine.

I chose this because it represents a lot of things. It makes me think of all those wonderful times in that particular school. It reminds me of all those wonderful students over at that particular school. It practically reminds me of the word 'GreaT'.

Haha, nope. The previous paragraph is all irrelevant. I chose this name because it so happened that I was thinking about that particular school when I had to register for the blog and I am quite fond of the nickname I got over at that particular school.

One More Thing... I chose this pen name because I like MIB the movie as well as the colour black...


When one is not focused in what he or she is doing, the thing he or she is doing will become crap... In this case, this entry of blog...

Cheerz

TeAcHinG the New InZz..

If you have bothered to take a look at my profile, you will note that my ambition or rather I would say dream is to teach. I would prefer dream since I have not considered teaching as a career job yet. I was so 'onz' about teaching that when I failed my first interview to get into teaching, I tried again.

By the time I went for the 2nd interview, I was already working in the society for a year but I was still very excited about it. The moment I stepped into the cold interview room with 3 late middle-aged women looking at me, I was not scared nor apprehensive at all. I was thinking, "Hell, if you wish to fail me again, I am prepared to come again and again for interview till you agree."

Guess what? I got in...

The question posed to me was, "Why do you want to teach?"

That was also the question posed to so many would be teachers who passed the interview. I told them in short that I do not consider teaching as a job but rather a choice of life I choose to lead. In my opinion, a good teacher is really as good as giving his or her life away.

That is not what other teachers may think. They will be thinking the best teacher will be able to find a balance.... A balance between teaching, knowing the students, caring for the students, keeping in contact with the students, preparing lessons for the classes, preparing worksheets or written assignments, marking assignments, revising assignments with students, handle administrative (paper work) for their classes, handle school duties, handle CCAs (prepare CCAs' activities, knowing the students, caring for the students, keeping in contact with the students...), handle duties such as special event like carnival's organiser..., knowing the school's focus and values, knowing parents, handling parents....., not to say their families, their kids, their spouses (be it 'lao po' or 'lao gong'), caring for their parents..... ...... ..... blah and blah and blah.......

The list may never end and you readers will be rushing to the toilet to puke...

Be realistic... We need to know what we have to do. For myself, I have a theory for myself. I mostly will actually focus on my students. After all, teachers are there for the students... Lessons?? Well, for those who have studied for years, don't lie to yourself that you just need to read the textbooks and supplementaries and you sure can pass. Teachers are there to teach the subjects and more about life to the students....

However, then again, different teachers of course will have their ideals. It is good to have an ideal so that the teachers can draw strength from their ideals. Teachers can be weak as well, since we are still humans.

;)

Cheerz...

The First Company......

Haha, English is always fun. By saying the first company where I did not put in the words at the back, people can always wonder if I am going to write about the first company in the world, or in Singapore or in my house. I am actually only going to write about the first company where I stepped in to work after ending my studies.

For those who are already working, it may just any other companies, but then, it was the first company which I stepped in to work, and the feeling would be more like of anxiety, and apprehension. What if I cannot succeed there? What if people there do not like me?

Anyway, it is just all pure wild guesses. The people there were helpful and interesting. I got to know a lot of good people there, especially my Team Leader, Support Team Leader, the people who sat near my cubicle, and I even got to know a good friend. ;)

Life there is about sitting down and listening in to complaints. There will always come a point when you will be able to breathe in calmly and reply calmly when you hear too many complaints. The complaints out there simply never end and a large percentage of the complaints show that they did not bother to understand at all too! However, I handled them quite nicely when I thought if I explained to them, they might be able to understand the situation and not call in anymore.

So there, I learnt quite a lot in my first company.

Moral of the story:
(1) Don't worry too much. You won't REALLY know whether it will turn out fine or not.
(2) Understand. Don't complain.
(3) Enjoy friendship as long as it takes!
(4).... And English can be fun.. =P

ReCaPzZzZZ

Before...

I would say I have been through quite a lot of U-turns in life because of my mistakes in life and mistakes in choices and attitudes. It is quite an ugly blotch on the paper of my life's journey.

Suffice to say, if you want a bed of roses for your future, do not make wrong choices, especially in the academic path you are taking.

I am not proud to say that I gave up on my university education mid-way, but there is no point crying over all the spilled milk. Neither am I proud to say that I was very immature in the past. However, if I were to take a time machine back into the past, I would still repeat what I know I should not have done. The only consolation in all the wrong things I did is that I at least learn from my mistakes and met so many wonderful people whom I would not have met if I did not spill the milk...

So there, moral of the story:
(1) Do not make wrong choices in life or you will have to take long detours.
(2) If you really did wrong, no point crying, but pick yourself up and move on.
(3) Appreciate the people around you.

Strength is not what you think you have, but what you have earned through life experiences.

The Reason

I was not really against the blog. Being the kaypo king, I always like to go to read others' blogs... Only to realise that keeping blogs is a good way to keep in touch with other friends.... Here we are, hardly having time to go out and keep in touch with every one whom we regard as friends and yet we always say, "Keep in touch!" to our friends... A total irony..

For those who are slacking around, surfing the net, a welcome to you all to at least read through and know that I am still surviving and updating things I am doing, so at least I am not really MIA, or classified as a Missing Person in your list...

Cheerz...

A New Start...

Yo~~!

I would never think that I would start a blog, but here I am... Guess whatever I will be saying here will most probably end up with '.....' because my thoughts will be trailing as I type, just like now.....

The main reason of starting a blog will be.... that my fingers are itchy... just want to do some stuff whenever I slack... I cannot be always staring at the ceiling everytime I slack. It will be most boring. So that's how I end up here.

Life is full of possibilities... no matter how lame the possibilities and reasons they may turn out to be.....